FEATHER IN MY CAP

ADMISSION OF IMPERFECTIONS
I hate waiting! There, I said it! Waiting for my coffee to brew (especially when the clock is blinking 5:45am) is difficult enough for me but the amount of ‘waiting’ already incurred in this process is near killing me. It seems that all I have done in the past 6 months is wait! Waiting to here from agency, waiting to finish up all our required courses, waiting to file certain papers, waiting to get our Homestudy approval and now, hearing yesterdays news that non-priority adoption approvals from the ministry are currently taking up to 14 weeks to complete is more than a mood killer.

I’m not trying to sound juvenile. No one promised me anything different and certainly no one could have predicted the outer country disasters that have affected the ‘normal’ pace of international adoptions. Logically, I knew what I was getting into. I had been warned that the wait would not be easy but it is tough when uncontrollable circumstances keep adding to our timeframe.

Everyday, I am filled with wonder. Is she born yet? – Where is she located? - What does she look like? Does she dream about having mommy? Someday these questions will all be answered and in the end, it will be worth it!

If she is willing to wait for us to love her, I need to be willing to wait to hold her.